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Member Since Mar 11 2006
Lab Monkey
My sincere apologies to Sulekha members, who inquired & tried to reach me in my absence..Couldn’t write for some time.. - Saaya.
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My eyes seeing above
every second reminding me the fact
that my legs are supported by a minute thing
in the vastness of space
feeling silly trying a get myself a house
Nothing is permanent
I try to boost my enegy and be happy
But I feel blue, blue like the blue marble i am in
I feel depressed, knowing nothing..
Short term memory makes me worry about earthly things
but the next minute, I remember how nothing matters in the overall picture..
Wonder why i am like this
amazed at the happy people, looks like they dont have a clue..
I am a depressed person, I scold myself
My doctor says, its just your chemical balance is off..
Oh I get depressed again "is there anything thats me? i thought its my personality..turns out its just chemicals"
Oneday, all this matter I am made of will just separate and be part of so many other things again..Am i supposed to be happy with the way I live, with the way i am going to die..
Nothing makes sense..
Nothing seems to have any meaning..
I am just gonna go and live my life,
defined by the understandings & thoughts of people just like me..
The moralities, the happiness, the sadness, the wars, the sufferings, the killings..
What madness..
Oh jeez, I am just going to take my medicines and alter my chemical balance and be happy..
I am just a lab monkey..
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